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Selingkuh

2007-07-21T05:58:00.000-07:00

Sampul buku ini memang membuat orang tertarik untuk melihat lebih dalam seperti yang kulakukan di Gramedia minggu lalu

Sumpah, baca satu bab aja membuatku jadi merinding....
Bener-bener membuatku merinding dan tidak berani meneruskan untuk membacanya lagi

Kamu sadar, saya punya alasan untuk selingkuh kan sayang...?
"7 dari 10 wanita mamakai Kotex, 7 dari 10 pria selingkuh"
"gw selingkuh tanpa alasan, pengen saja...."
.....dan masih banyak alasan lagi...:p yang menurutku tidak bisa dijadikan alasan untuk melakukan selingkuh

Sampai beberapa hari aku masih terheran-heran dengan isinya yang sungguh-sungguh "out of my mind"
Sampai-sampai aku berfikir "masihkan kesetiaan menjadi hal penting dalam sebuah hubungan.....?!?" ato hanya aku saja yang masih idealis memandang kesetiaan adalah hal yang harus saling dijaga....:p

Sumpah, itu membuatku takut untuk menikah.....:p hiks..hiks...

After 4 years

2007-06-17T23:30:00.000-07:00

16 June 2003, this is the day I come to Jakarta

It's means, it has been 4 years I live in this busy city...!!!

4 years, time goes by very fast...:p

I still remember those day, the day I left Djogja....

I go with several friends by Taksaka train from Tugu station and almost missing the train

5 minutes left before the train go...hehe

And i bring all of my friends tickect ...(ups, sorry...!!!)

Caused I have to say goodbye to someone in his office

Ups.... always smiling, remember that time...

After 4 years...

I don't even go to Monas and TMII...:p

Plasa Senayan, Plasa Semanggi, PIM, PI, Mangga2, Mall Ambassador, Tanah Abang, quite often...(hmmm.....no coment dey...:p)

Still...

I'm not decided yet to live in Jakarta forever...(I hope....?!?#$)

I'm Sorry Goodbye

2007-06-16T23:18:00.000-07:00

The funny moment began when my friends call me and hear the new Krisdayanti's song as my NSP, as below :

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I am sorry goodbye….

sebelum bertemu denganmu hidupku bahagia
semenjak bertemu denganmu ku makin bahagia
semakin lama aku semakin tahu tentang engkau
sedikit kecewa ternyata engkau tak baik

pertama-tama semua manis yg engkau berikan
membuat aku merasakan cinta sebenarnya
semakin hari semakin terungkap yg sesungguhnya
aku makin kecewa ternyata kau penuh dusta

maafkan ku harus pergi
ku tak suka dengan ini
aku tak bodoh
seperti kekasihmu yg lain
terima kasih oh Tuhan
tunjukkan siapa dia
maaf kita putus
so thank you so much
I’m sorry, goodbye

seribu cara kau membuaiku dengan puitis
maybe kau lupa bahwa aku pun juga manusia
yg punya mata, punya hati, dan perasaan
maaf aku pergi dan takkan untukmu lagi
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They ask me : why i put that song as my NSP...? Reflected your mind with someone..:)
And, I said : what wrong with that song....:p ?!?
That a nice song with a deeply lirycs & sing by KD...
I don't even know, why i like this song
hhmmm.....May be my friends were right. Puas...puas...!!!
and...,
I do like the reff lyrics very much...:p xixixi
It's figur out that someone has choose her own way...
It's really hard to do that.
And finally, it's all about choice, right...?!?

Just Listen....

2007-06-16T09:57:00.001-07:00

Caused I can't combine the lirics in one posting....
Here it is...

Boleh Jadi.....

2007-06-05T22:00:00.000-07:00

Memikirkan setiap peristiwa yang terjadi dalam hidup ini mengingatkanku atas kebesaran Sang Pencipta. Bahwa setiap peristiwa pastilah terjadi atas ijin Allah, dan selalu ada hikmah yang tersembunyi....

Walaupun kadang, kenyataan tak seindah dan bertolak belakang dengan keinginan. Tapi aku yakin itu adalah yang terbaik....

Bahwa rencanaNya yang jauh lebih indah dan sempurna...

Teringat ketika bertiga memutuskan untuk langganan internet M2 atas nama satu orang untuk bertiga, sehingga kita membutuhkan Access Point agar kita bertiga dapat menggunakannya secara bersamaan. Akhirnya diputuskan kita akan beli di Ambassador.

Pencarian pertama,

Ke Ambasador ditemani temenku untuk memastikan tipe Access Point yang cocok. Tidak langsung memutuskan untuk beli, karena memang baru cek harga.

Pencarian kedua,

Akhirnya kita bertiga memutuskan untuk membeli, dengan kesepakan masing-masing membawa laptop untuk diuji coba langsung disana. Karena abis ketemuan ama temenaku, jadi aku tidak membawa laptop (berat jo, jalan-jalan sambil bawa laptop....:P). Temenku satu lagi, eksternal CD room-nya ketinggalan di kost gak terbawa.... Jadilah rencana belinya gagal total, berakhir dengan sebel.... dan saling menyalahkan

Pencarian ketiga,

Sepakat semua bawa laptop masing-masing, dan langsung uji coba. Semua peralatan lengkap, giliran penjualnya yang gak tau cara pasangnya.....uih, gimenong sih penjualnya :P.

Acara gagal total berakhir dengan temenku yang mendamprat mbak penjual karena kagak mudeng.....sabar to Tis :p

Acara mendamprat belum berakhir, karena pas makan malem di makananku dapat bonus ulet segar yang menggeliat-menggeliat di piringku. Temenku melanjutkan dampratannya ke Manager, dan minta ganti rugi. Puas banget ya Tis, marah-marah dan dapat ganti makanan baru.....Dasar...!!!

We are totally desperate....

Sampai terlontar " Kok kita tidak diridhoi ya untuk beli....? Ada aja kendalanya...

Ternyata, beberapa hari setelah prahara pendampratan, temenku baru dapat kabar dari bosnya bahwa dia dapat fasilitas kantor untuk langganan M2. uih... ooo jadi ni dia jawabannya...

It's means....

Kita tidak membutuhkan lagi yang namanya Access Point....

Itulah kenapa, selalu gagal total acara belinya.

Tuhan, seandainya kita tahu akhir dari rencanaMu...hmm

Udah marah-marah, desperate...!!!

Sepertinya ayat ini cukup menjelaskan:

Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. (QS: Al Baqarah : 216)

Tuhan, bimbinglah aku untuk selalu dapat mengambil hikmah dari setiap peristiwa

Baik itu peristiwa baik maupun peristiwa yang kurang mengenakkan

caused every little thing, always have a meaning.....

After One Year

2007-05-27T22:52:00.000-07:00

27 May 2006

It was Saturday morning when the big earthquake happened in my lovely town Djogja

I still remember when my Mam call and tell about it

I still calm down when my Mom said " It's OK...!!!"

But, when I saw in TV...I started to cry

How come my lovely town become like that...

I was live in there for 25 years

There was a town where I born and grow up

So many moments & memories left behind...

Yesterday, I saw " Mengejar Mas-Mas..."

It's just a simple film with Djogja's background

It's remind me all about You...

GOD, take care of my lovely Djogja

Just be my lovely town...

And always be my lovely home...

I Love U Djogja.....!!!

If Tomorrow Never Comes

2007-05-25T21:25:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, my uncle past away
No sign before and no messages left
Many questions being ask in my heart...
Did he tell his family how much he loved them…?
And for the left family, did they tell him how much they love him…?
Or many others feeling

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I remember the old song, by Ronan Keating

If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night

I lie awake and watch her sleeping

She's lost in peaceful dreams

So I turn out the lights and there in the dark

And the tought crosses my mind

If I never wake up in the morning

Would she ever doubt the way I feel,

About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes...

Will she know how much I loved her

Did I try in every way to show her every day

That she's my only one

And if my time on earth were through

And she must face this world without me

Is the love I gave her in the past

Gonna be enough to last

If tomorrow never comes...

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life

Who never knew how much I loved them

Now I live with the regret

That my true feelings for them never were revealed

So I made a promise to myself

To say each day how much she means to me

And avoid that circumstance

Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

*If tomorrow never comes...

So tell that someone that you love

Just what you're thinking of

If tomorrow never comes

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So touching isn't it...?

I cann't imagine " If Tomorrow Never Comes"...:(

GOD, give me more time…
More time to express my feeling…

To show how much I care...
To show how much I love...

To show how deep they mean to Me...

And, to feel that I cann't live whithout them...

Dedicated to:

My Dad, Mom, family, friends & beloved one....

I LOVE U.......:))

Never Ending

2007-05-19T20:58:00.000-07:00

Life is a never ending journey
Happiness… after….Sadness
Thankfulness…after…Emptiness
Love…after…Broken Heart
…. and many other feeling

Sometimes we focus on what we don’t have, and many times forget to be Thankful on what we have. When I was on colleges, I want to be a worker. When finally I have a job, sometimes I still feel disappointed with my condition and want a better job…uch..!!!

More questions continue in my heart…
When do I have a car? When do I have a house?
And, more questions being asked to me….
When do you get married..? when do you have a child..?
…Never Ending… as long we still live

But, those questions make me still have a spirited life
And I still want to make them come true
Insya Allah…..:)

I always try to be a person who is always Thankful in every moment of my life
GOD…, remind me to always show my gratitude to YOU…..

Amien.....:)

The Power of Forgiveness

2007-05-13T23:30:00.000-07:00

I still remember the moment when Spiderman finally met the murderer of his uncle, Mr Sandman. After 2 years kept his anger, Spidey finally said :

“I FORGIVE YOU…”

It’s a simple word to say, but really hard to do, isn’t it…?

My mind traveled in many years ago, when someone deeply disappointed me. Few years after that, I am still angry with him. No matter how hard I tried to forgot it…:p

My best friend Henni, said “I only hurt my self if I still kept that anger. First, I have to forgive my self, than forgive him and finally I will forget it….”.
And it really works, even though it’s really hard to do….!!! I have a good feeling after that and I could saw it with different point of view. Thx u Hen, you always be my best adviser.

Is not easy to be someone who is always forgiving
But, I always ask GOD to bless me with a big heart to forgive
And I always try to be a person who easily say : I FORGIVE YOU…..:)
I give forgiveness either for myself or for somebody else…

I realized that I still make many mistakes to many persons or many things
No matter how hard I always try to be the right person
But, I always ask GOD to bless me with a big heart to ask forgiveness
And, I want to be a person who easily say : FORGIVE ME…..:(
Would you....?!?

MAMA

2007-05-03T01:30:00.000-07:00

Mrs Nana Said, is one of my best friend.....Eventhough she is not my mama and so far away in Belgium, But she always be my best friend i ever have . I read her blog www.myrnahera.blogspot.com and found this...

MAMA by Diana Ross :

I need love, love. To ease my mind
I need to find, find someone to call mine

But mama said :
*You can't hurry love. No, you just have to wait
*She said love don't come easy. It's a game of give and take

You can't hurry love. No, you just have to wait
You got to trust, give it time. No matter how long it takes
But how many heartaches. Must I stand before I find a love
To let me live again...

Right now the only thing That keeps me hangin' on
When I feel my strength, yeah….. It's almost gone

I remember mama said:*
How long must I wait. How much more can I take
Before loneliness will cause my heart. Heart to break?
No I can't bear to live my life alone

I grow impatient for a love to call my own
But when I feel that I, I can't go on

I remember mama said:*
You can't hurry love. No, you just have to wait
She said trust, give it time. No matter how long it takes
Gotta wait! No, love, love, don't come easy

But I keep on waiting. Anticipating for that soft voice
To talk to me at night. For some tender arms to hold me tight.
I keep waiting, i keep on waiting. But it ain't easy

It ain't easy. But mama said:
You can't hurry love. No, you just have to wait
She said to trust, give it time. No matter how long it takes
You can't hurry love. No, you just have to wait
She said love don't come easy. It's a game of give and takes
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So nice and encourage, right?
Actually I never hear this song before xixixi….. But i do like this lyrics
I dedicated this song to my friends who still looking for the right person
Many of my friends….:p

Thx u Mrs Nana....

WHAT OPRAH HAD TO SAY ABOUT MEN

2007-04-21T23:09:00.000-07:00

I like Oprah very much,
She is inspiring women (include Me..:P) from anywhere…
Here what she had say,…

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If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be

Never let a man know everything, he will use it against you later
You cannot change a man's behavior, change comes from within

Never let a man define who you are
Never borrow someone else's man
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you

You need time to heal between relationships
There is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you
A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals.
Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right
Make him miss you sometimes...
when a man always know where you are,
and you're always readily available to him, he takes it for granted
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need

Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...
You'll make someone smile,
another rethink her choices,
and another woman prepare

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them ,
and an entire lifetime to forget them….:P

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I like the first paragraph, it makes me rethinking…
I smile when I read the last paragraph…
So, which paragraph make you smile, rethinking or prepare…?!?

Only 3 days

2007-04-01T08:28:00.000-07:00

I do belief that there is only 3 days in my life…

Yesterday…
It was the day that I had been trough
The day that I would never came back
The day that I would never could changed
The day that it couldn’t happen again
It’s just the past…..Let past be the past……
Let it become my memories

Today…
It is this day….
The day that I have to enjoy it…
Just enjoy it in every moment in my life
When I falling in love, I will be someone who is falling in love
When I feeling blue, I will enjoy every falling tear from my eye
When I feeling empty, I will be someone who is feeling the emptiness
I enjoy every moment in my life….
Caused I do belief that nothing will be forever
Every moment has a time…..
Today moment, it will become tomorrow memories…
Just totally and do my best to enjoy this day…

Tomorrow…
It is next day…
The day that I can not imagine what will be happen…
Will it be the best day in my life…or
Will it be the worst day….?
Only Allah will know it & let HIM take care on it….
Allah will give me the best things happen
I only have to belief HIM…..

Everything Happened for a Reason

2007-03-15T12:06:00.000-07:00

After chatted, my friends ask me simple questions:
“Are you sure with what are you doing…?"
“Aren’t you wasting your time…?"

Maybe what I have doing didn’t make sense for some people
Even though for my self too…
I just follow my felings...
But, I always belief that….

“Every Little Thing Has a Meaning”…
A meaning that only Allah knows…
A meaning that Allah wants me to trough it
A meaning that Allah wants me to learn about it
A meaning that event me, don’t know what the meaning behind it

And I do belief that Allah had chosen my destiny…
A destiny that I can not choose it…
A destiny that I have to face it…

I only say to my self;

Just be patient wall in every moment life
Allah will give the best thing at the right time
The time that I don’t even know it
Just keep my faith on HIM…
And always lean on HIM….

“Caused Everything Happened for HIS Reasons…”

Java Jazz

2007-03-07T20:19:00.000-08:00

I am not a person who crazy of jazz actually. But when Java Jazz event on 2-4 Marc in JHCC, I am curious with it caused so many my favorite singer will perform. I am a blessing person, caused one of my best friend Irma offered me to joint in it …..yuhuuuu..!!!. IDR 400.000,- and FREE, common…. !!! Thx u very much my dear…!!!

2nd, I started from 3pm to 2am. From Shaharani, Kahitna, Titi DJ, Maliq, Shaka Khan, to Indra Lesmana. The schedule was too tight, so I have to run from one to another performed.

3rd, I started from 4pm to 1am. Huhuuu…. And in the morning, I have to work. But it’s really worth it, they were cool. From Glen, Mike, The Groove, Andine, Level 42, to Jammie Culum.

Two days that I never forgot it….and it was really worth it to be missed. Next Java Jazz, I hope I can joint again. Will I get it free again…..Hmmm?!?

It’s All About CHOICE

2007-02-20T22:46:00.000-08:00

Have we realized that life journey is the matter of choices…
Every moment in our life, we have to make any choices
Choices which make us become different person from another,
Choices which make us become what kind of person we want to be

Everybody has a reason for every choice
It is my choice to become a bad person or a good one,
And, it is your choice to become another
It’s just the way we want to be…

Welcome to restroom

2007-01-13T22:26:00.000-08:00

Finally…., I have my own blog….!!!

After I just become a visitor in my friend’s blog, finally I got one
Don’t take it personally what I said in it
It’s just the way I expressed my feeling

Just enjoy it, and leave your message….:p